There have been days in my past the weight of pain, doubt, unbelief, lies, fear, aniexty, depression weighted over. Some days it was as if someone had placed a wet blanket up against my face and I couldn’t catch my breath.
So many times I would God ask why?
I would try to surrender it all.
I desperately wanted freedom in Christ.
I take two steps forward and three backwards.
I couldn’t feel the hope.
Isn’t He God? Can’t He fix this?
I wanted to throw my hands up and say “Really God? ”
Even though His love never stops and His word is alive, I could not feel it.
I even asked God…..”Why was the enemy’s voice stronger than yours, God?”
If you my friend have ever felt this way let me share some truths that God revealed to me during my time of darkness.
First, I opened up His word even when it didn’t make sense.
In the book of Job God only spoke at the beginning and the end of the whole book. And its forty-two chapters long. Job was the perfect example of someone shared in this darkness.
He had it all. God even called him blameless. Job 1:1 If anyone had a right to question what God was doing it was Job. He was a righteous man who lost everything he had, even his health.
Just because Job couldn’t hear God didn’t mean He wasn’t there.
Second, I listened to God.
As I listened, I learned I don’t have to have all the answers that’s Gods job. I heard someone say one time “sometimes God only lights the path in front of you to take the next step.” I needed light to shine in my darkness. God became the light unto my path. Psalms 119:105-106
As healing began, some things began to make sense. Although, I didn’t have all the answers, I became ok with that.
And thirdly, my favorite lesson ….
I learned if I want freedom I must live in freedom and accept His freedom. This my friend is why He went to the cross.
God laid a very important verse on my heart during this time of healing.
Everywhere I turned I would hear this verse. John 8:32 You know the truth and the truth will set you free. Im a firm believer in researching what God says so I set out to do this very thing.
In John 8 Jesus is talking to the Jews. He trying to get the them to understand true freedom, accept Him and know just He he is. Some understood and some did not. In John 8: 30-47.
Jesus wants us to know Him. He wants to speak truth into us so that He can demolish the lies we believe.
All along Jesus was speaking to me. He never hid His love. Freedom came with a price. A price He already paid and He’s speaking to you too. He said it himself.
He will light your path in darkness.
Learn from His word and believe it.
Accept His freedom, He wants you to be free.