What does it look like for God to take our sin and brokenness and turn it into good for His glory?
For years I have been weighed down with guilt and shame from past events in my life. Although, I have known that my sins are covered by Jesus’ blood I allowed a bondage of disbelief to set deep into my heart. Leaving me empty and uncertain of Jesus’ love, past sins would creep in like water that washes over a road making the road unseen and impassable.
That was my heart.
Silence was loud and I couldn’t understand why my God who is full of love refused to answer me. Why wouldn’t He meet me in this place to deliver me from shame and guilt? The answer? Because He already had met me here many times! My bondage was disbelief shaped in the form of pride. Time and time again the Lord sought after me sending me His love, mercy and grace. But I was spritually blind because I couldn’t see pride that has sunk deep into my heart. All I could see was unworthiness, unforgivness and His lack of my undeserved love. That my friend? That is hidden pride!
The free gift that Jesus so freely gave me was unaccepted by me. I asked myself, why did Jesus die? To look good? No! Was He truly our King? Yes! He stepped out of heaven just for me and just for you. He wanted to cover us with His blood for our sins so we could be with Him forever! His gift was Himself!
I was rejecting His love with my disbelief. Pride was my bondage. His truth wasn’t setting me free because I wasn’t accepting His free gift. Jesus was waiting for me to believe so that He could meet me on a deeper level to penatrate my heart and make it whole again….
It was then I realize I have to choose to believe that He gave His life for me. When He sees me He sees me covered in His blood that washed me clean. I am forgiven! I am loved! I am whole! Nothing can separate us from His love not even my pride. Choose to meet with Him daily and accept His love for you too!
Lord, thank you for always leaving the ninety nine for me. Thank you for showing me that my pride was standing in the way of my belief. I choose to unwrap Your free gift of love, mercy and grace daily!
But people who aren’t spiritual can’t receive these truths from Gods Spirit. It all sounds foolish to them and they can’t understand it, for only those who are spiritual can understand what the Spirit means. 1 corinthians 2:14
Christ died for us so that, whether we are dead or alive when he returns, we can live with him forever. 1 Thessalonians 5:10