Whatever has come to be has already been named, and it is known what man is, and that he is not able to dispute with One stronger than he. Ecclesiastes 6:10 ESV
Something about closing in on age 50 made me search my soul and ask myself “How did I get here so fast?” I was entering into a new season of life, one that so many had bragged about.
For 27 years I had been a mom. Perio. Even though I had sometimes wished there was more to my story, motherhood was definitely my calling. God had placed me here and I had settled in quite comfortably. I loved being a mom. But somehow I began to question my purpose.
Would I be worth something now if I had just finished college?
Do I even have a purpose anymore?
Should I have done something different with my life?
My two beautiful daughters had just married the men of their dreams. My son was finishing college and beginning his career. What more could a mom want, right? Everything on the outside looked great but on the inside I was slowly fading. Into what I felt like was a nobody with no purpose.
Did they even need me at all?
I had struggled with depression off and on over the years. Some seasons were worse than others, some offset with tragedy, but this time I couldn’t understand why darkness had set in my heart. Wasn’t I in my “prime”?
My heart sure didn’t match my feelings and my life became hopeless, at least that’s what my mind was telling me.
I wasn’t contributing to this family anymore.
Oh mommas and mommas to be, I’m here to tell you those are pure lies from the enemy; And to those of you whose struggle has nothing to do with motherhood, the same applies to you. You were created for a purpose. You were chosen: Chosen to be that mom of those beautiful babies, chosen to be the CEO of a company, chosen to take care of an elderly parent, chosen to pour His love into those around you.
“You are my witnesses,” declares the Lord, “and my servant whom I have chosen” Isaiah 43:10a
Whatever God had chosen for you, it has been given to you long ago. God placed your name on it. He even states we are not to dispute with the One stronger than us. Who was I to argue with God? Ecc 6:10
My season of motherhood wasn’t done it was just changing. I had become so comfortable in that season I had forgotten just Who I belong to. It was time to step into a new season. God had placed my name on a calling , it just didn’t look familiar yet.
If only God would just reveal my next steps, things would be easier, right? Sure He’s God and nothing is impossible with Him. But my friend, this is not always how our God works. He showed me just how unfamiliar life can be in my transition to the next season.
The one thing that was familiar was His character.
He was patient when I questioned Him.
He held my hand when I didn’t know where to turn. “I will take you by the hand and keep you” Isaiah 42:6
He placed people in my life that spoke truth over me.
He strengthened my marriage like never before in 30 years.
He even showed me my next steps, one step at a time.
My time as a mother of young children was never wasted. And your time is never wasted in the season He has for you. Embrace the new season my friend. Put your full trust in Him because He wants to walk with you in each season. The season He formed for you long ago.
Heavenly Father,
Thank you for choosing me in this season. Help me to trust You when I don’t recognize my next steps. I lift up to you those who struggle with Whose they are and the purpose you called them to. What an honor to be chosen by you, Father.